Tears New Year

john 15:9-17

love others as u love yourself, and love your enemy as u do… this really remind me to the tragedy that happened in several Asian countries including Indonesia (Aceh). Many people died, the second most worst disaster in this century… I still dun believe we will end this year with such a painful ending, we should cry and drop our tears to our nation, our world so that He give us His mercy ...

2 days ago I’m busy making invitation and slide show presentation for Dr.Peter Youngren ministries which will happens here in Jakarta, 15 January 2005. His healing ministries are well known all over the world and last time he came to Indonesia at Bandung, GOD make thousands of miracle for people in Bandung. Many were healed from blind, paralyzed, cancer, and many more. I believe His miracle will happen again in Jakarta this January, come and bring all those who r sick and let God heal them ...

Sound of Music

Sound of Music....

i think this movie is one of the greatest movie ever made... great story also... wonderfull
i bet this movie already become a legend.. just like titanic... good... good.. i really really like their voices... so beautifull... u should watch this movie...

FASTINGGGG....

1 john 1:1-10

I remained again to come before Him and pour out everything that I felt and I been through. My pain, confessing my sin and ask His forgiveness. And for a million times, I don’t know how many I already do that, well I do it again... and I feel different, I don’t know… I just feel something different. One thing I’m sure that I’m glad, it makes me feels better.

I’ve been thinking also that sometimes I felt as a man I am very week. I felt that I don’t deserve to be a man, especially man of GOD. I get often demand Him why He doesn’t create me as something else, another person, anything.

Being phlegmatic person not fully fun ya know… I realized that I need to change it, at least I can become more caring to someone else. The positive thing to become a phlegmatic person is u will never feel alone, because u like to be alone, far from any crowd and noise he he… but that is not entirely last forever coz sometimes I feel lonely, I need someone to share my life with, and for now I have my best friends and my family. May be that’s why I need to get married he he …

The most I hate being phlegmatic is when I get too excited with myself I’ll forget anything that happens around me. Including ignoring my friends trouble, my family trouble, any disaster that happening like earthquake disaster at samudera hindia recently, mmmm 2 days ago I think… well no wonder people get negative impression about me that I am an “arrogant”, “careless”, “introvert”, “weird”, “unpredictable”, what else.. u name it…

I like to be myself, because that is what people always told me “BE YOUR SELF”, well it’s good, but it’s not enough. Being my self is not my goal, I know that I need to change my character; my goal is to have Christ’s character. That is what Christianity all about, when Christ live in u then let Him express Himself in u, so people don’t see u anymore but they see Christ in your life…

Patch Adams.. u should watch this movie....

Today until the whole week I’m absent. I dun come to the office.. ho ho ho long holiday… I need refreshing ya know.. strezz my mind.. hihihi…

I started today with wake up at 10 am. Wah how lazy I am.. hmm.. btw I watch Patch Adams movie again.. This movie really inspired me. My vision.. I’ve just realized that I’m not loosing my vision, but my vision just blurring.. like a blurred picture in front of me. I can’t see clearly again… I just need new strength, new spirit…

I want to see all of my old friends. I owe to them everything. I can not forgive myself if one day I found one of their life is in jeopardy. I will come back … no matter what other people say and think about me… I will come back …

Blue Christmas

Dan 11:31-32

Today GOD slap me with His words at the church… at this verse I fell that I am the bad guy, I’m one of the people that do such things that unpleasant Him… I know I need help, and I am pleased that He still look at me, He still care for me… thank you, thank you..

Afternoon…
I committed sin again, twice… I start blaming myself again, condemned myself again. I feel unworthy to come to His presence … I really don’t know what will happen to me … I don’t know… I don’t know…

SMS FREAK

In This Christmas night rain keeps on falling until this morning, and I felt the peace of Christmas, its good. And I start to thinking about myself, my vision, my purpose of life, my job, my friends, and most of all my family. I’m so regret that I dun do so many things for my friends and my family for almost 24 years of my life…. I think I am the most arrogant person in the world. I keep saying in my vision to help someone else, to draw “a smile” on everyone faces a true joyful smile tat came from the right source (Jesus), but what?! I dun feel that myself. How the hell I can make someone else happy if I’m not happy?! Oh… man…

I’m still waiting for Him to talk to me… I receive 42 sms x’mas greetings today... Wow that is a great... But still I dun feel any joy…. =( still waiting for someone special greet me…

MERRY X'MAS 2004

we wish u oo merry x'mas
we wish u oo merry x'mas
we wish u oo merry x'mas, and a happy new year...

merry christmas ... merry christmas HO HO HO...

this year christmas, i think same like last year... not to special for me... ive just have christmas celebration at senayan. very crowded 10000 people join together to celebrate christmas this year. actually i enjoy it. i enjoy the show, but still i feel something missing in me, something missing in my life that i should have on every last years christmas eve... i'm still searching what it is. adn i believe GOD still with me right now...

Goodbye... Dr. Theresia Widia Soerjaningsih - Rector of Bina Nusantara University

Dr.Theresia Widia Soerjaningsih - Rector of Bina Nusantara University has just passed away this morning at 3 am for leukimia...

wow... feels wierd dude... my rector died, i even dun know her.. but i du respect her.. he he...

well good bye mam, see ya in the next life...

D & D VMI Gathering 18 Dec 2004

here r some pic from D&D VMI Gathering 2004, 18 Dec 2004...

Database for the best performance... Map Update the worst.... Lame.. hahah.. hey we are not proffesional singer you know... hohoho...

My MOM

yo.. yesterday is mothers day..

let me tell u about my mom.
she is a talkative person, sometimes quite annoying but without it no more joy at home....
her voice is like my morning alarm that always wakes me up so i never late go to work.. he he..
she is a sensitive person also.. every time she watch a dramatic movies she always cry... "oh that story is so nice, so romantic ... hu huuuu hhuuu.... " like tat lah... hehhe =D
well even so.. i love her.. cozzzzz.... she is my only mom hehehe.... no lah... i love her no matter how bad she is, no matter how noiziezzz her voice to me.. ha ha... thax GOD for giving me mother like that...

Happy Mothers Day...

Holy Mom...

Bible says about Mothers...

Gen 3:20
Adam named his wife Eve, because she would become the mother of all the living.

Exo 20:12
"Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

Lev 19:3
"Each of you must respect his mother and father, and you must observe my Sabbaths. I am the LORD your God.

Deu 5:16
"Honor your father and your mother, as the LORD your God has commanded you, so that you may live long and that it may go well with you in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

2 Ki 4:30
But the child's mother said, "As surely as the LORD lives and as you live, I will not leave you." So he got up and followed her.

Prov 10:1
The proverbs of Solomon: A wise son brings joy to his father, but a foolish son grief to his mother.

Isa 66:13
As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you; and you will be comforted over Jerusalem."

Ezek 16:44
"Everyone who quotes proverbs will quote this proverb about you: "Like mother, like daughter."

Luke 1:43
But why am I so favored, that the mother of my Lord should come to me?

Luke 2:51
Then he went down to Nazareth with them and was obedient to them. But his mother treasured all these things in her heart.

John 19:26-27
When Jesus saw his mother there, and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby, he said to his mother, "Dear woman, here is your son," and to the disciple, "Here is your mother." From that time on, this disciple took her into his home.

BACK AGAIN

after more than a month, i'm back again.........

still du no what to write ... he he =D